"The attempt to escape from pain is what creates more pain, and that’s the reality of addiction."
Sometimes I forget this. As a result, I find myself buried in work and studies while letting my relationships and physical health flounder.
Maybe, instead of asking “Why am I neglecting myself,” I should ask, “What am I running from?” For example, when I do certain chores, I find myself thinking about really depressing things, sometimes. It reminds me of being berated by my mother while I was a child for not keeping the house clean enough and of the poverty that I pushed myself through as an adult. That hurts, so I sometimes struggle with motivating myself to do the dishes. Maybe I need to face that pain in a more direct and compassionate way.
I have my faults too. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is admitting you have a problem and doing something about it
I cannot remember the books I’ve read any more than the meals I have eaten; even so, they have made me.Ralph Waldo Emerson (via purplebuddhaproject)